This picture is appropriate as it represents the New Year and I'm happy to say that my 'declared' goals are coming to fruition. I've hired a dance instructor for private dance lessons and I'm cooking a lot more these days. I find the cooking to be sort of meditative and therapeutic. Since the installation of my dishwasher (I went over 2 yrs w/out one!), it makes cleaning easier, and the new counters aren't as scary to prepare things on. The dancing is just as wonderful as I imagined it would be. My instructor says I'm picking up on the moves quickly and has asked a couple of times if I'm quite sure I haven't received dance lessons before. :) As for the trip to Italy, it will likely be a Mediterranean cruise, which would include a couple stops in Italy. Just fine with me! I've found gardening to be thereapeutic as well. My yard is quite large and requires a lot of time and effort, but an hour here and there has made a huge difference. If I'm feeling even a little bit of anxiety - say from an impending test- I can go out and garden for an hour and feel much better.
The things on my mind lately revolve around when and if I will ever have a baby. A friend sent me a TM yesterday wishing me a Happy Mother's Day and that he has a feeling I will "be one soon", "just a hunch." He has no idea how much that meant to me. Perhaps a baby will drop out of the sky onto my front porch. Ha. I have the means to procreate a baby, but I am afraid of genetic mutations AND a baby of mine inheriting some of the 'bad' genes in the family, AND of contributing to our overly crowded population. I know there's a baby out there in need of a good mommy. I just need to be patient.
No comments:
Post a Comment